WOOH. It has been quite the amazingomgfrustratingstopdontstopiwanttoscreamandgiggleanddance past two months. Really – quite impossible to put into words.
I have been going through a business divorce. A time that has not been pleasant and lots of sad and frustrating. I can only politely liken it to being stuck in a quicksand pit and then … at moments … pure unadulterated freedom. The last windings are occurring and in the end, as with all things that are quite apparently life lessons, I am left with “what the heck happened”?
I won’t bore you with that part. I want to look forward, not back, and the amazing opportunities and connections that have been happening are double confirmations that I was correct to emerge from a relationship that had stagnated.
Working as an entrepreneur is never easy but it is filled with awesome moments of pure satisfaction. I get to craft and form my creations whether they are websites or words or recipes or photographs and then, I get to send them off into the world. I love my work life and to have a chance to hone and contemplate my path forward has been really valuable.
Plus, I have an amazing Breakthrough Coach, Karen Pfeffer, who has been an unstinting cheerleader, advisor and kick in the butt always when I needed it. Trust me – she is INCREDIBLE (and does sessions over the phone ahem!).
Madness defines my world for the last 4 1/2 years. Leaving the corporate world to be an entrepreneur. Separating a marriage. Building a business. Being as destitute as I could ever imagine. Moves cross country and cross oceans. Breaking through the destitution. Winning clients. Ups. Downs. Sideways. But in the end the whole process and the distillation of the lessons for me has been this …
Finding Genius in the Madness.
What does that mean?
Defining what I really love to do and what skills I have that can support doing more of it.
Honing my areas of focus so I am not scattered in too many directions.
Focusing more on JOY every single day and moving Self Love and Self Care further up on my list of priorities.
Recognizing and accepting support.
Exiting the Survival Mode that has been a driving force and trusting the foundations that I have built.
Blessing the Universe for each and every opportunity.
and finally …
Now that I have found my Genius, it is finally time to let the madness slip away. I don’t need it anymore. I have arrived.