I have been filling my days with busy and work but in those quiet moments, the anxiety and fear creep in. Yesterday was his birthday and over the weekend we had a delicious dinner and got to sit out in the sunshine and laugh. My Dad has a great laugh.
I could tell for all of the celebration that he is nervous too. Doctors have told him that the surgery is a 30% survival rate since he is high risk. My own heart contracts and hurts when I think of that.
Prayer, mantras, support of friends have all been surrounding me and I know there is a legion of awesome lightworkers that are sending positive energy today. My rational brain knows this but the little girl inside of me is huddled and terrified that I might lose my Dad today.
A quiet presence has been walking with me since yesterday and has been so compelling that I wanted to share it. I have had some powerful and incredible experiences over the years with Angelic presences and the Archangels, but it was with some surprise that I saw the Archangel Sandalphon silently holding space for me starting yesterday. Many scholars and people experience Sandalphon as a male presence but I have always experienced HER as a female presence.
She is the twin to the Archangel Metatron and while he is the “Voice of God”, I have always seen Sandalphon as the Whisper of the Soul. She is associated the the Qabalistic sphere of Malkuth and has a calm, poNew DietNew Jobwerful energy that soothes every fear and anxiety. As I have been fluttering from one thing to the next, she is just there, holding a space that I can rest in and whispering reassuring prayers to my Soul. A burden has been lifted because when I feel as if I am sliding towards fear, Sandalphon is the touchstone that helps me stay positive.
Today, as I take my Dad into the hospital, I have an Archangel walking with me and I am ever so grateful.
Have you ever felt Angelic Presences? I would love to hear your experience below!
A picture of my Dad from this weekend with all of the Grandkids: